Truth surfaced.
Rearing it's ugly head like a feared leviathan from abyssmal depths.
It lurked for a while, then it struck clean and true.
There was no time to bleed, there was no time to cry.
Just the comprehension and the struggle to come to terms that the hopeful vessel,
On it's maiden foray into uncharted waters,
Abound with the dreams of youth, arrogance and the seemingly indomitable,
That which enjoyed the fleeting moments. The thrill that surged through,
Everytime the vessel rode a wave. That that same wave,
Had harboured the harbinger of their doom.
Tempestuous waters, they play. The leviathan follows suit,
Engaged, both, in mirthful dance. In tandem to the thunderously solemn requiem,
Of wind, lightning, thunder and rain...
And of the vessel, no one heard of them again... ... ...
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where did that come from?
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SiQ, (crushed and utterly broken), out~

SiQ frenetically scribed @19:56.

thanks to my stubbornness and total lack of control, i instigated conversation and inadvertently took on the wrong topic and messed it all up again. anyone could see it from a mile away that i was a fresh graduate of 'Loserville High'. if my life was a daily serial for the world, viewers would already scream "hold back you freak!", or "you're scaring her off!"

thanks to my utter dumbness and irritating persistence, i might lose the best thing that's happened to me for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooong time... the stuff that makes the heart flutter, the knees weak, causes butterflies in the tummy and shit like that...
and i thought i learnt a lesson 3 years ago... the way it's going, it seems like lesson learnt, lesson forgotten... RELEARN ALL THAT SHIT!!!

hahahah... emo, emo... maybe i'm just a fucking emo prick... yeah...

SiQ, out...

Luna, Luna.... how you dominate my mind...

SiQ frenetically scribed @22:10.

today was bloody turmoil... turmoil and uncertainty... it fuckin gnawed away at me the whole day... milking and bleeding away my being... siphoning my strength...

turmoil and uncertainty at noon...

turmoil and uncertainty in the afternoon...

turmoil and uncertainty at twilight...

turmoil and uncertainty in the evening...

the whole bloody evening...

Disquietude reigned and slapped it's grubby meathooks across my face every available opportunity...

when it seemed that 'all hope lies in eclipse', Nature tipped the scales a little in my favour.
great care and control was forcefully exercised, despite the overwhelming desire to fully unleash the pent up distress...

and the day ended, with the simplest of words. the simplest of words to utterly vanquish the aforementioned feelings of extreme shittiness... finally, maybe my first decent night of sleep...

carpe noctum, Luna... you know you want to... =)

SiQ, out~

SiQ frenetically scribed @23:38.