new sensations have made themselves present in my life the past few days (or week). both bitter and sweet. the bitter has always been there. the sweet couldn't have come at a better time. in general, things seem to be ironing themselves out very gradually.

the bitter:

my ORD date looms ever so close now. at work, i've been trying to be extra nice to everyone, even the newbies coz it seems no matter how much shit u give the new guys upon their arrival to mark ur seniority, the human touch inevitably breaks through as u realise that u didn't like it one bit when u were on the receiving end 2 yrs ago. so u mellow and become good friends with them. i hope to leave the unit with plenty of handshakes and pats on the back. to give and to receive.

concurrently, i'm terrified of how terribly unprepared i am to face 'adulthood', regurgitated from the haven i've grown to know and become so fond of. i hope my application pulls through. this is the most i've ever been armed with for an (any, for that matter) application. *sigh* uncle Maritz has shed some light on the signing on situation. i am not surprised. neither am i pissed. maybe just a little... weary. weary at trying and failing... screw this...

SiQ frenetically scribed @22:40.

Lol! believe it or not! i logged in with 1001 things to write about and the moment i got here my thoughts deserted me! hahahahz... damn!

*chuckles*

really!!!

til later then~ ;D

SiQ out!~

SiQ frenetically scribed @19:31.

ahh... this place smells relatively the same as when i last left it. musty and horrid. funny how at the insistence of a certain 'honeybee' i can be arsed to update my almost defunct blog. i personally hope 'almost defunct' is the furthest it'll ever get. not that i don't want to write, i just... can't... i'm just not focused enough to sit and write...

with 10 mins left to spare before i have been advised to go to bed, i shall attempt to provide readers with as decent a read as a teary-eyed, sleepy-faced individual like myself can provide. which isn't very much. for at the same time, i feel that i have to go to the loo but i fear going now would disrupt my momentum and i would overshoot the 1am as promised.

there isn't much to write about really. unless u want to hear about how i'm contorting myself right now so i don't spill the contents of my bladder all over my seat. and it's legs. and onto the floor. i think i would be able to provide cirque du soleil with an extra contortionist. but only if my bladder is full...

the time is now 12:57am. i hope that leaves with me enough time to do no. 1 and hop in bed. so til later readers.

SiQ out!~

SiQ frenetically scribed @01:46.